Day 21: Meh.

Today wasn't good or bad.
Eh.

I'm at Cameron's house!
Brayden, Cameron and I are playing Dungeon Defenders.
I bought it for Caleb too! Well, I bought it, and he's going to pay me back for it.
So yeah.
We're all playing it right now. Pretty awesome.


I also miss Jess.
A lot.
So hopefully we can do something tomorrow.
If not, we have all of Saturday.

-Nolan

Day 20: Eh.

Today was boring.
Yeah....

That's my blog.

Ian, Aaron, Ben, and Caleb are all in my basement, playing video games.
We're going to try to set up a LAN game of Red Alert 2.
Woot.

Day 19: Rojjjjjjaaahhhhhhh!

Today was good!
I woke up, ate some food, and hung around the house playing some racing games.
Then I went and picked up Meghan and Jessi and went to Horsetooth!
We were SUPPOSED to meet a guy there. A guy that I introduced Meghan to.
He didn't show up.
But we still had fun!

We skipped LOTS of rocks.
I dominated at that. Meghan was learning!
Kind of.

Then we just sat around.
There was a woman with a very prominent British accent who kept yelling at her dog 'Roger'.
It was funny listening to her.

Then I dropped them off. I... I really miss Jessi right now.
Like a lot.
I'm feeling much better than I was earlier.
I'm also exhausted.

It's what I get for getting no sleep.
Oh well.

See you all later!

-Nolan

Day 18: Short Blog

Today was good!
I saw a Nissan Skyline today.
Jaw dropped. I've never seen one on my corner.
It was awesome.

I'm at Brayden's, Games!
Video games.
It's awesome.

Day 17: Party x3!

Today was awesome!
Jess and I planned out to go to City Park and take pictures before we went to the parties, right?
She called me at 9:45 in the morning, BOTH of us half asleep. I wasn't sure who was calling me, and she was half asleep and couldn't really form a perfect sentence.
I'm sure our conversation was... Awesome sounding.

Anyway.
She dropped by around 11:30. We left around 12 or so. We....
Well, we went to City Park, got some water, our cameras, then walked a bit to a nice bench by the lake.
Then we asked each other, "So what ideas did you have?"
...... We both had no idea what to do.
So we ended up just leaving.

First off, we went down to where Mary's party was going to be.
We walked around a bit and Jess showed me the neighborhood!
It was good. There were quite a bit of............
To put it gently, "Amuurrricans."
Cowboy boots, talking about Nascar, chewing and spitting, drinking beer, American flags waving off the back of the big Chevy trucks, couple shotguns in the back of the room..
Yeah.

Amurrrrica.

I think I walked in and my level of patriotism skyrocketed, and my tolerance dropped like a rock.
It was funny.

I got to meet a couple of Jess's really good friends, and I really liked them!
I can't wait to hang out with them.

After that, she showed me where she went to elementary school, where she went to junior high, and where she went to high school!
It was really really cool.
I loved seeing bits of her past.
Then we went to the park near the elementary.
We played on the playground.
It was awesome.
We were walking and my water bottle hit her hand....
She DENTED the BASE of my SOLID metal water bottle.
The solid base. Where the metal is thickest.
She DENTED it with her knuckle.

It's.. Terrible. Ouch. I felt horrible.
But she said it felt better.

Then we went to Madi's party!
Not sure on spelling there.. But we went to her party.
She's such an adorable sweetheart. Cute as a button.
And her dad!
Geez. I don't think I've ever had such a great first impression from an adult ever.
He was so kind and awesome.. I loved meeting him.
He was just as sweet as his daughter.
Yeah.. It was fun. Awkward, but fun.

Then we went home. Then......
Meghan called, and... Well, her cat died. 18 years old... She was crying, and Jess almost started crying.
As soon as I heard Meghan's voice on the phone, I was getting ready to go. I've never heard her cry.
Granted, we just met, but.. Still. I care about her. So we hauled ass outta there.
I didn't even tie my shoes.
We got there and hugged and talked a bit, then headed out to Caleb's party.
His was fun.

I liked it. I got to show off my girlfriend to my friends.. I loved doing that. I felt... Fancy.
I loved holding her hand and introducing her to everyone. I really did.

Then we went home.
Well, we went to a park first. We were going to take a walk, but we got sidetracked talking.
And.. We sat in the car for a good hour talking. About.... A lot.
A lot of things that we needed to cover. I mean, it's not stuff that is hurting us or making things bad, it's just...
Things we need to talk about. Deep subjects.
Our pasts, our feelings, what we think about our situation, what we want to be, what we want to change..
I always come away from those discussions feeling good, and I think she feels the same.

I love being able to talk about important things with her.. We have a really good relationship that we can talk about important things.

Then we headed home and watched a bunch of different stuff on Netflix.
We also were a little... Late in getting her out of the house.
Not for that reason! Perv.
It's cause her alarm didn't go off.
So... She made it out of the house about 16 minutes late.
But she made it home on time!
Which is always good.

Yeah..
Today was good.
I loved being around Jess for the whole day.
I really can't get enough of her.
I'm off to game a bit, then go to sleep.

Bye!

-Nolan

Day 16: Boring.

Today was boring.
Woke up, ate...
Sat around the house.

Watched all the Fast and Furious movies. It was pretty awesome.
I want a nice car.

Oh well.
Tomorrow, I have a long nice day with Jess!
We're going to take lots of pictures at City Park.

I'm excited.
Then go to lots of graduation parties!

Yup.

Good night!

-Nolan

Day 15: Fun!

Today was boring up until about... 7 or so.
Work, waking up, eating.. Yeah.
I watched Fast Five today. I love that movie.
I love all the Fast and Furious movies. Not because things are really.. Accurate.
I mean, it teaches you that the MORE times you shift, the FASTER you go.

But I love watching car stunts // tricks and such.
And there are SO many pretty cars. So I love watching those movies.
I went and picked up Jess, and we did a few things!
First we went home and tried to figure out what to do.

We went to the dollar store to get a frisbee! We wanted to play frisbee.
Being a dollar store, I gawked around at great stuff I could buy for a dollar.
We ended up getting 2 frisbees in case one broke, and a can of silly string.
Because we were standing in line and we turned around and..
"... SILLY STRING."
We got some lime green. We have no idea what we're going to do with it.
Then we went and hung around the park for a bit.
We went on some swings, then played frisbee, then laid on the grass with my head in her lap.
We also played in the sand.
And by played in the sand, I mean I did this.

I had to draw the shape, then use darker sand to make it more visible.

It took me a minute to draw it, then another 3 or 4 minutes to use the darker sand to fix it haha.

Then we went home and watched some Mindfreak, then Demitri Martin!

That.. Was basically my day.

It had a good ending.

I'm... I'm not sure how I'm feeling at the moment. 

I've been really.. I don't know. My emotions all seem to be clashing all the time.

Oh well.

Time for video games!

Good night!

-Nolan

Day 14: Pretty standard.

Not much happened today. I went to sleep at 6 in the morning, so I slept until 2 or so.
Woke up, ate some cereal, hung around the house... Went to work, came home.
Threw up twice at work. So I only got about 2 and a half hours in.
Came home... Did nothing.

I'm blogging right now because I built for a NMHC survival on Dungeon Defenders, and I'm just hanging out and letting the game progress. I got to wave 25 easily a few days ago, so I promised to bring along one of my friends so he could get an achievement. So right now, I'm leveling the brand new Summoner class while he runs around DPS-ing things and upgrading or repairing any defenses that need it.

Ah I love Dungeon Defenders. Great game.

Uh.. Not much else happened.
My mood has been pretty standard today. Up, down, all around.
I missed Jess really badly today. I know it's only been a week since we've seen each other..
But I just.. Really miss her. Tomorrow, we're going to go see a movie or.. Do what we always do!
Watch movies in my basement, tv shows, then one of us falls asleep.
Either way, it'll be fun.
Sunday, we're going to a couple graduation parties, which should be fun.
I get to go as her date, which will be awesome! I get to be somebody's date. Yayy.

Yeah.. That's my day.
This weekend should be better than this week was.

See you all later!

-Nolan

Day 13: It smelled like rain all day! And I blab about my girlfriend a bit.

It really did smell like rain all day!
I loved the smell. Rain and trees.
Makes me think of camping and backpacking.
I miss that. I hope I can go backpacking for a bit this summer.
Nothing quite beats setting up a tent and sleeping in it.
Then waking up at 4:30 in the morning and hiking 6 miles down a winding trail that takes forever to get through.
Or hiking through the infamous "Sketch Trail" that my Philmont group found on our last trek.
It was a very sketch trail. It was technically on the map! It may not have been used for.. A long time, but it was still there dammit! And we went through it.
Like bosses.

Yeah.. I miss that.

Uhhh what else happened today...
Not much. I fell asleep during the afternoon. I was waiting for it to stop raining so I could go to work.
It stopped raining after I woke up, so I decided to go! I went to work, and it was raining there, harder than it was at home.
So... I didn't go today.
Oh well. I will today.

After that, I went to see The Avengers with some of my senior class!
It was awesome.
Within 5 minutes of being around Cooper, I had laughed more than I have in the past 5 months.
Oh it felt so great. I haven't felt that... Great. In a while.
Well, I feel great all the time when I'm around Jess! But...
I don't know. I missed Cooper. I call basically 2 guys my 'bro', not being derogatory.
Shaun and Cooper. They're the 2 guys that I really feel close enough and alike enough to be my brother.
Cooper especially. I swear.. We have the same thought patterns. We made jokes during The Avengers, and it was fantastic. Every time someone looked especially shocked and confused, we made a very deep drag sound and said "This is some good shit!".
It was funny to us!
We found ourselves hysterical. Also, there was a preview for The Expendables 2.
IT'S GOT CHUCK NORRIS. And AHNOLD actually does some action-y stuff!
I'm excited for it. If it's like the first one (explosions, guns, fighting, and no plot), I'll love it.
It's truly a "guy" movie. Full of all the fun stuff. Except sex, which I found awesome.
It was an ACTION movie, not a... I don't know. But it was way cooler with no sex and lots of explosions.

Uhh.. After The Avengers.. Actually, wait.
During the movie, I'm pretty sure Acura paid out the nose for their product placement.
When the camera was panning through the wreckage in the street, there were no insignias on ANY car.
I looked! And since my job consists of watching cars go by, I'm pretty sure I could pick out logos.
And there were none! Except a couple Acuras. The camera even stopped zoomed in behind an Acura RDX. And then at the end, Tony Stark was driving a very fancy Acura. Not sure if it's a supercar they made, or just a really really fancy sports car. It was very flashy.
Not my type, but still cool.

Anyway.
After the movie, I went to Dan's house! I'm currently in the basement with Cameron, Dan and Brayden.
We're a group of friends that have been friends since... 5th grade? Or so.
So we hang out a lot.
Not really an emotionally bonding or talkative group, but we love hanging out.
Lots of video games.
Tonight, I played a lot of Resident Evil: Operation Raccoon City.
It's really fun!
I mean, there are various things that hardcore gamers probably wouldn't like, but I personally love it.
It's SO satisfying for the Resident Evil franchise to be moving back to good ole' zombies and not biological weapons, like the "rage virus" in 4 and 5.
Speaking of which...
RESIDENT EVIL 6!!!!
AHHHH I'M SO EXCITED!
Leon Kennedy and Chris Redfield in the SAME game!
Ahh imagine the strange sexual fanfiction that will result from this game.
But anyway.
I'M SO EXCITED!
I was talking to Geoff and I was saying

"I haven't been this excited for a game since... I don't know!"
"Since Trials Evolution?
"I suppose."
"Since Skyrim?"
"I guess."
"Since Brink?"
"Yeah.."
"Since the HD remake of Resident Evil 4?"
"Hmm.. Yeah."
"Since Bioshock 2?"
"......"
"Since Mirror's Edge?"
"......"
"Since-"
"I get the idea."

Yeah.. I get excited for video games easily.
But I think I might save up and get the 100$ collector's edition for it.
I love video games.. I'm going to have to eventually buy a fancy version of the game.
Cameron got the collector's edition of Guild Wars 2.
That'll be a fun game.

I'm more excited about Resident Evil 6 though.
Yeah..
That's my day.
I miss Jess.
She has to finish schoolwork before we can see each other.
Which should be by Friday or Saturday.
So I'm excited.
It's our 1 month anniversary on Saturday.
I already have a silly little present.
Yes, I know it's stupid and silly to be excited for that.
But.. I don't know. It just makes me really happy. That I'm with someone who wants to track our time together.
It's been a month? That's really fast. We started talking in March.
Barely.

Hah, our first time hanging out was great.
We'd met on Facebook (Definitely something that happens in my generation), and we were....
Insanely, crazily, disturbingly AWKWARD. I mean, we were going to Meghan's house to hang out.
And... We got there early, so we sat in my car and listened to music.
Oh god, I've NEVER had something so awkward in my entire life. Seriously.
The first 15 minutes of our relationship was filled with awkward silence and awkward small talk.
But we eventually warmed up and were talking normally.
And.. Obviously, things between us went well. Very well.
It's absolutely pitiful, but I asked her out over text.
Let me explain! It's not because I was too awkward to say it in person.
It's not because I didn't think it was important.
It's because... Well, that night, I just.. Well, I couldn't stand to NOT be hers.
I really couldn't. That night, we were talking and.. I just.. Yeah. I wanted to be hers. Right away.
So I did that.
I've made up for the awkward "asking her out" bit. I've done other cute stuff for her! Like buying her favorite candy and driving to her house at a random time during the day when she just got out of the shower.
I didn't realize that. Until I got there and she texted me "Uhhh.. Let me put some clothes on before I answer the door."
But she liked the candy. So.. I'm glad!
I've done other stuff too. Random and various things.
So.. I think I've made up for asking her out over text.

Yup. 1 month.
It seems like we've been together for a week.
We both think... Scratch that, we KNOW that this will last a good while.
It's just.. A feeling we have. That things will go very well and last a while.
Yeah.. So that's me blabbing about my girlfriend. Silly, I know.
But I felt like I had to.
Not had to, that I wanted to.
My therapist and I talked about the various things in my life on Monday.
We talked about A LOT. And some things I had to get off my chest were said, and.. Well, he helps me calm down and approach things better. That's.. Kind of his job. And he's very good at it.
After the various therapists I'd been through, I definitely found one that fits me.
We have the same taste in music (kind of), the same sense of humor, the ability to laugh at ourselves, and we even make fun of people in the same way. Obviously not to be hurtful, but just for the lulz, so to speak.

Hah. Lulz.

Uhhh.. Yeah.
That's my day! It was good.
I took my medication, so I should be sleepy. However, I think once I pass a certain time, I don't fall asleep as fast. I think that time is.. 3ish.
So we're hanging out and drinking Mountain Dew (Our choice of soda when we hang out), playing Minecraft, and we've been listening to video game soundtracks for the past... Lots of time.
It always works. From 8-bit Megaman, to Legend of Zelda, to more Legend of Zelda, to more Legend of Zelda, to Pokemon, to more Legend of Zelda.. Yeah. We like Legend of Zelda. Quite a bit.

Yup!
I always say "Yup. So Yeah. Uhh... Mhmm. So.."
Those are the ways I finish off sections of my blog that I don't know how to set up.
I think today was quite good.

Whenever I go to sleep, I'll be passed out most of the day.
I'll be sleeping quite a bit today. Like a sir.
Not really like a sir, but for a long time.

My mood has fun fluctuating.
I feel a little.. Not as happy right now. But I'm sure it will pass.
Oh well....
Well, I'm done for now!

Have a good day everybody!
And Jess, good luck on your math test! You'll do great.

-Nolan

We've taken TONS of photos. And when I'm upset, I look at some of these just to make myself smile.
They always help cheer me up when I'm feeling... Meh.

This is my background!

We're ridiculously cute.

This one is from the first time we decided to take random pictures..  It's one of my favorites.

Day 12: Eh.

Today wasn't bad, or good.
Basically woke up, went to therapy, hung around the house, then went to work.
Came home from work, sat around the house.

Yeah...
My life is so intense right now, it's disturbing.
Crazy, crazy life.

Well, it wasn't bad. I'm going to hang out with some friends tomorrow. Or the day after.
So hopefully that should be fun.

Yup...
Eh.
I'm off to sleep.

That's a lie.
I'm off to play games, then sleep.

Adios amigos!

-Nolan

Day 11: Work, Movie, Dungeon Defenders, Street Fighter!

Day 11.. Yay!
Not sure why I put yay.

Just because.
Today I woke up late, went to work, came home, played video games, then went to a movie!

Work was okay. 3 hours in the sun was nice. I got made fun of a few times. Eh. Comes with the job.
Played some video games when I got home. Dungeon Defenders frustrated me for a good 2 hours, so I stopped.
Then played Street Fighter! Same result. Seth is a pain in the ass to fight. So much teleporting and grappling.
Pisses me off. Although, I did figure out how to play as Vega (somewhat). He's one of my new favorite characters along with Oni, Ken, Akuma, and... Not sure. Sagat and Adon are fun to play. Adon applies pressure like a boss.
And Sagat just hurts peoples' faces. With fireballs. And knees. And elbows. And fists. And feet.

So then I went to see Wrath of the Titans with Liberty, before she goes back to Washington.
It was really good! They pulled off Greek mythology very well. Everything about it was awesome.
Very good scaling. As in, the giant god was.... Giant. Quite giant.
I liked it. A bit cheesy at times, but still really cool.

Right now, I'm sitting and watching Burn Notice, debating if I want to play Dungeon Defenders or Street Fighter.
Hmm.

Not sure.
I need to give M. Bison a try. Since I played Vega, I know better understand playing characters with 'charge' moves. And Bison has better health and a little better damage output.
Hmm.
I'll probably play both! Hooray!
Well, I'm off for now.
I will talk to you all.. Tomorrow.

As usual!
So.. Yeah.
Good night, and I hope you wake up smiling!

-Nolan

Day 10: Still uneventful

Title basically says it all.
Pretty boring day.

Stayed home, ate 1.5 meals, played video games, watched Netflix, talked with friends.
Later, Dane dropped by and we hung around and played some League of Legends.
That's about it.

I had something to write about, then decided not to!
I'm lazy.

You know the drill.
I'm off to do random shit then go to sleep.

Bye!

-Nolan

Day 9: Easy and relaxing!

Today was good.
It was basically just laying around the house, napping a little, then Jess came over for the evening.
We watched lots of tv shows and watched parts of movies.
We started a movie, but I was having... Mental // emotional issues with the movie, so we decided to save it for a better time.

All in all, it was a good day.
I liked it.

Right now, I'm... I'm not quite sure how I'm feeling.
I'm.. Yeah. Up and down.
Little emotional right now, but I know it will pass soon.
I just have to wait it out a bit.

But I have our stuffed zebra, Unicorn, that will help me fall asleep tonight.
And I'm going to play some video games to help me calm down and focus my thoughts.

Right now, I'm addicted to Trials Evolution.
I'm determined to get this good at it.

Crazy, right?

Well, I'm off to play a bit then head to sleep.

Here's hoping I can fall asleep smiling!

Have a good day everybody! It's summer!
At least for some of us it is.
If it's not yet, hang in there! Summer break! Yay!

-Nolan

Day 8: Eventful! Not really..

Day 8.. Hm...
Wasn't really eventful.
For me it was.

I mean, my life is pretty boring.
Right now it is, I mean.

Today, I woke up and sat around the house, listening to music, playing music, playing video games, and...
Reading a bit, actually.

Then I headed out to work!
It wasn't as bad as I thought it was going to be.
I felt better about myself, and felt pretty good.
I was able to... Smile and laugh a bit while I stood there, staring at cars, and wishing I had the money to start my project car.

And daydream about when I can own a nice car.

Yeah.
That's what I do.

Then I headed home and played my drums for a good hour.
For the first time, I had to actually roll up my pants and take off my shirt to play.
I was really really getting into it.
Drumming is a very good release for me.
It allows me to beat the shit out of something but produce something at the same time.
I definitely let out the stress and emotions of the past week or so.
I loved it.

I already can't wait to get back on my set.
Right now, I'm addicted to playing this song.

I'm currently trying to absorb Luke Holland's style of playing.
I mean, a majority of the way I play is based off of Cobus' playing. It's what I watch the most, and he's one of my favorite drummers.
However, I need to get some more... Flare. Some more solos, and different fills that I can use on heavier or faster music.

As for what I'm actually listening to, I've been obsessed with the "Punk Goes Pop" cd's.
I really really really really love them.
Quite a bit.

The song I've been absolutely OBSESSED with is...
This one.

I absolutely adore the song.

There's not a single part of the song that I don't like or would change.

I definitely like the guitar at the beginning the most.

It just... It's a really poppy sound. 

You know?

Yeah. Poppy.

Hah.

Poppy.

After drumming, I went to Shaun's graduation party.

That was fun! I was a little late. By 2 hours.
So only a little. I like to pretend I was fashionably late.

But I got there, and the first thing I did was sit and talk about cars with one of the guys there.
It was fun! We don't have... Really really in-depth knowledge about cars, but enough to have a conversation about.

Then I went home, and for the first time in a while, Cameron, Dan, and Brayden were all at my house, along with Aaron and Shaun.

They're all asleep right now, except Cameron and I. He's playing Call of Duty, and I'm sitting and listening to music. And blogging.

Obviously.

Uh.. Yeah. I think that's all I've got to say right now.

I took my medication, so I'm... Dizzy and sleepy. 

I did an experiment one weekend, and didn't take the one that makes me sleepy the most.

And I didn't fall asleep easily. So I figured out that not taking one of them allows me to stay up and pull an all-nighter! I didn't have to during the school year, but I figured it out, so it was a back-up plan. If necessary.

Yeah.

Anyway, that's my day.

Today, my plans are simple.

Lots of drumming, lots of Youtube video-watching, and spend some time with Jess.

Should be a good day.

Right now, I'm feeling eh.

Not bad.

Just.. Eh.

Not sure how I'm feeling haha.

I'm just existing, I guess.

But I'm not really feeling bad, so that's a plus.

Yup.

Well, I had a great day.

Good morning, and have a good day!

Today will be better than you think.

Remember, you'll feel depressed sometimes.. But then remember you're awesome.

If today is rough, just hang in there! Smile, think happy thoughts, and drown yourself in music.

Well, don't actually drown yourself. But listen to a lot of music. It can work wonders.

Have a good day everybody!

-Nolan

Day 7: Not too bad at all!

Today was simple.
Woke up, went to my psychiatrist, came home, played video games, then hung out with Jess!
It was a goodish day.
The ending was great.
Jess and I fell asleep together again.

After watching the movies we planned out, we put on another show, and one of us ends up falling asleep.

I liked it. It helped me relax.
So yeah.

Good night.

Have a good day everybody!

-Nolan

Day 6: Meh.

Today.
Meh.

Not exciting.
Not fun, not happy.
Kinda boring.

I don't know.
Just feeling.... Out of it. Drained. Confused. Tired. Dizzy.
I don't know.


Yeah.
Tune in tomorrow for more boredom.

-Nolan

Day 5: Ups and Downs

I'm blogging right now because I intend to sit down and refuse to move for the rest of the night.
Today was.. All over the place.
It was a very emotional day.

Ups and downs.
I heard some things I suppose I needed to hear, as painful as they were.
I also realized some things, which I guess I should have realized earlier.
About 45 minutes ago, I had a miniature panic attack.
I suppose it's good that I have learned to contain them better than I had before.
It's a valuable skill! I can now have small mental breakdowns in public.

Hooray.
I suppose that's useful?
I don't really care right now.

I got to hang out with my friend Liberty today! She moved to Washington in February, so it was pretty cool seeing her again. We sat down and talked about random stuff, then drove out to a park and.. Sat down and talked about random stuff. It was good. I liked seeing her.

So you know how my music choice is dependent on my mood?
I'm listening to Devil Wears Prada and Haste The Day.
I'm really not sure why.
I just... I don't know.
I'm in the mood to hear screaming and growling.
It might be that I need something to overload my brain and override all my other thoughts.
Music to push every other thought out of my head.
To relax me.
Lots of people don't understand that harder music can actually do that for people.
There was a study done where "metalheads" were surveyed, and an overwhelming majority of them said that listening to heavy music actually has a cathartic effect for them.. Fact of the day.

So I guess that's why I'm listening to it.
I just...

I don't know.
At all.
My brain is overloaded by so much.
It's kind of scaring me, to be honest.
The interesting thing is, I'm able to remind myself that no matter how I'm feeling, I'll be feeling completely different within the hour.

At least sometimes it works that way.
I'm hoping that's how it is right now.
I can't wait to relax and feel happy again.
Well, I suppose I am kind of calming down.

Okay, not really.
I'm just going through various exercises my therapist and I talked about.
Breathing, visualizing, etc.
It's kind of helping a little bit.
Little.

But I'm also talking to some close friends. Not really about anything.. Just.. Talking.
Which helps.
And focusing on this screaming and growling is really helping.
I'm kind of surprised. I'm focusing on how they're screaming and how the music is organized.
I really really like heavier music.
Now I remember why I listened to this 24 / 7 for a while.
I think I'm going to listen to some Suicide Silence. That should help.
Also, I'm going to drown myself in video games for the night.
Well, video games, and talking to my friends.
Ah well.

Hopefully tomorrow will be better.
Sleep well everyone!

Have a good day.
-Nolan

Day 4: Fun!

Today was good!
I hung out with Jess for most of the day.
We hung around the house, and went to City Park to see her mom's memorial bench.
I liked it.
We walked around then went to get on the swings!
We had fun swinging around for a bit, but I started to feel nauseous, so we stopped. We went home and sat around for a bit, then went to Horsetooth and watched the sunset. It was fun.

We then headed back to my place to watch Beetlejuice! Because I had never seen it.
Then we watched Fairly Oddparents.
And fell asleep.

Barely woke up in time to have her head home.
So yeah.
I'm nice and comfy in my room, watching Moribito. It's a pretty good anime.
I like it so far.

Uh..
Yeah. That's my day!
I'm off to game a bit then sleep.
See you all later!

-Nolan

Day 3: Sleepy

Well, it's day 3 of summer.
That's right, day 3!

Not sure why I had to reiterate that it's day 3, but I figured I should.

Today was.. Iffy.
Woke up feeling alright. Had some breakfast, then hung out in my room.
I was... Unhappy for a decent chunk of the day, so I ended up sleeping a lot.
But I kind of cheered up.

Okay, I didn't really cheer up. But Aaron and Dan came over, which was nice.
We're hanging out in the basement. They're asleep, and I'm watching From Paris With Love.

Although I've already seen it and I remember what happens, so I think I'm going to change it.
Please hold.

Now I'm watching Sherlock.
I love this show.
But there are only 3 episodes on Netflix right now.... Sad day.
Hmph.

I've decided I need to learn how to play as Vega in Street Fighter. Among top-tier players, he's barely even seen.
I don't compare myself to a top-tier player, but I really want to learn how to play him because he's barely played.
When it comes to video game character choice, I'm a hipster. I choose the least-played or most difficult characters.
So I need to try out Vega after I write this blog.

Also, tomorrow, I'm spending the day with my wonderful girlfriend.
I'm quite excited to see her again. We're going to find stuff to do all day!
We might build a pillow fort.
Because we are just that badass.
And watch fun movies, obviously.

I'm very excited.
So!
I'm off to game some more before I go to sleep.
I'll talk to you all later!

Have a good evening and a better morning.
-Nolan

Day 2: Boring

Today was quite boring.
Not bad though.

Woke up, ate food, played video games.
I ended up taking a nap later in the day.
The nap was.. Interesting.
I had a 7 layer dream.
Very Inception-y.
But they were nightmares.

There were very cute and wonderful parts, but.. There were parts where everything fell apart.
I woke up.. Not sure how I was feeling.
Depressed.
But I had a nap! Woo.

Then I basically hung around the house and played video games and slept.

Went out to dinner with dad, which was nice. Good food.

Well, I'm not really in the mood to blog.
As usual.

That's weird, I never seem to be "in the mood" to blog.
Huh.

Well hopefully, I'll start feeling happier and more excited when I blog more.

Good night!

Good morning?
Eh.
Either one works.

-Nolan

Day 1 of my summer: Good!

Spent a large portion of time with Geoff, playing video games.
It was awesome.

Then I dropped him off and picked up Jess!
We watched Easy A then browsed Netflix.
She got me into Bob's Burgers.
Bob is the voice of Archer.

I love it.

Well, that's day one.
So good night everybody!
Summer has started.

Summer!

Well, I'm not feeling like blogging.
It's summer time though!
Finally!

No more classes.
And I get to spend the summer with my wonderful girlfriend.

I'm quite excited.

So good night everybody!

Sleep well.

-Nolan

3 finals left... I got this.

Today wasn't bad, it wasn't good.
The ending was good.

I was really stressed, and I told Jess. She ended up hauling ass to my house, and I went outside.
We sat in her car and played music, talked, laughed, and all-around made me relax and feel better.
It was awesome.
Only 3 people have ever been there for me the way she had. Jess, Aaron, and Erin.
It's comforting to know that I have friends who will drive to my house just because I'm upset.

I love it.
I'm done blogging for now, because I have to be up at 6 in the morning for a final tomorrow!
Woohoo.
I've been cramming a bit, so I'm hoping it goes well.
I'm studying right now.
But I'm going to sit back and play some Street Fighter afterwards.
It helps calm me down.
The thought that goes into playing helps me relax.
Combos, reaction time, changing up strategies.. It helps.

I said I didn't want to go back inside to Jess, and she sprayed her perfume on me and wrote "Jess <3's You!"
on my hand.
It's so cute.
It will help me tomorrow morning and get me motivated for my test.

So yeah.

Good night!
Tomorrow, I have 3 finals.
Then SUMMER!

Finally.
I'm excited.

-Nolan

Final Numero Uno: Toast!

Yum.
Toast.
Buttery toast.

If you sad that in Ed's voice, I applaud you.

Today was nothing special.
Didn't have class!
In fact, I don't have class at all this week.
Which is awesome.

Today, I woke up around 11 and got straight to studying.
Gross.
But I studied! Yay! A lot of the day was spent studying.
Then around 3:30, I left for my Philosophy final. It wasn't.... Too bad.
I mean, I didn't do great.
But I don't think I failed.

I hope I didn't.
The entire class was conceptual, so there weren't many hard facts to memorize.
So the final was a little rough. But I think I did alright.

Hopefully.

Came home, studied. Played some Dungeon Defenders.
I have quite a few hours on it.
However, it's because a LARGE portion of it is spent AFK, keeping my shop up.
I'm trying to make some money. I have 2 pieces of trans armor, and I have money for another piece.
Which means I need 2 pieces! I'm excited to get a full set.
Maybe I'll be able to solo some harder stuff.
So hopefully that happens by the end of this week.

And I just checked, I have EXACTLY 600 million mana.
O.O
That's weird. I rarely have exact amounts. So it's.... super... exciting... Woohoo.

Well, I'm done blogging. Not in the best of moods tonight.
So sleep well everyone!
I'll see you all tomorrow.

-Nolan

...... Kerp?

I'm trying to think of titles, and all I can think of is words that have "erp" in them.
Oh well.

Today was good.
I woke up at 11, and spent the day studying, up until 6, when Jessi and Meghan came over.
Meghan stayed for an hour or so, then left.

Jess and I watched "Pay It Forward" which was a really really good movie! I liked it.
Ending was sad. It made Jessi cry.
Almost got me.

Almost.

Then we worked on some schoolwork and listened to music, fixed her iPod, and started a list of music that I need to get her.

Yup.
Unicorn went back to her house, which means I have her hoodie for a while.
I miss Unicorn already! What else am I supposed to cuddle with when I fall asleep?

Not sure.
But I should be fine.
This week is busy, so I'm not sure how much I'll see her.
After this week though.. Summer!
A summer with her.
Which I fondly hope will be the best summer I've had in a while.

Good morning everyone!
Have a good day.

-Nolan

Merp.

I'm really tired.
And I don't feel like blogging tonight.

So..

Good night!

Have a good day everybody.

-Nolan

Good morning!

Well, I had a really really great nigh with jessi, but I'll blog about that tomorrow. My gut and stomachs hurting so bad I can't focus or think, so I'm going to get some sleep. Good night! Or good morning. I will talk to you all later!

-Nolan

Derp.

Today!
Not much happened.
Uh....

Yeah.
Class. Then I went home. Work. Then Jessi! We went to the Heritage talent show, then went home.
Then hung around a bit.

Yup..
Too lazy to blog!
Good night everyone!

-Nolan

Capri Sun, GOOSHERS, Zebra The Unicorn, Little Miss Sunshine!

Again, the title basically says it all. My day was pretty amazing!
Jessi and I took Caleb and Christine to lunch!
Jessi called me around 9:00, when both of us woke up, then kind of fell asleep and woke up a few times.
While texting.
But hey, I picked her up and we made it on time!
So we went to lunch with them, which was really fun. I had a good time, and I hope they did too.

After lunch, we decided to go shop a bit!
So we went to Kohl's to find a sweatshirt for us, but there wasn't any, because it's summer or something like that.
Pssshh.
We were at Guitar Center, and she showed me this really cool drum set that she had been looking at the day before. It was awesome.

So we went to Toys R' Us.
Not really a stuffed animal we wanted... But we saw a bunch of LEGOs, and we ragged on the fact that the piece count per set has dropped dramatically, and the prices were too damn high.
We didn't like that.

Then we went to Super Target! We found a cute little stuffed zebra. We named it Unicorn.
 Also, if you've seen Steve Byrne's stand up, you know his joke about cougars? That they always have Capri Sun and Gushers?
So we also bought some Capri Suns and Gushers. Also, I found an 89c Hot Wheels car I wanted!
Lamborghini Aventadore LP700. It now sits next to my Porsche 911 GT3RS.
They're pretty awesome.

Then we went to my work. I went to work for my 2 hours, so she basically walked around the mall and square near my corner. Then I called her, and she walked back and we went home.
Got home, and basically spent the night cuddling, tickling, laughing, and watching movies.

It was a pretty great day.
And tomorrow (today) is Friday! Weekend!
Time to get my ass in gear and study.
Finals next week.
Yup.

Stressful week ahead. But then I'm done! Yes!
*fist pump*

So yeah.
Good night!

Have a good day everybody.

-Nolan

Day 13: Still going strong!

Had a wonderful day.
Okay, not much happened.
Woke up, class, came home, worked, then Jessi came over!
We watched the Notebook....
Such a cute movie! I loved it!

Then we watched.. Saturday Night Live a bit. We tried to find the one when Justin Timberlake says "Mascurra" and "BLACK WIDOW SPIDER!"
It took a few minutes, but we found it. Then we watched Get Him To The Greek! Great movie.
Then we just sat around for a bit!

That's really my night.
So it was pretty awesome ( :

That's all I got for now.
See you all later!

-Nolan

Good Day Streak: Day 12!

I'm so surprised that my good day streak has been going for 8 days.
It's seriously amazing to me.
I generally don't have so many good days.
Given last month, and the big event that I was dreading, that I was paranoid for....
Well, I didn't expect to be smiling much last month.

However, my days have been going very well.
Sure, there are times when I'm depressed, when I'm upset, when I can't smile.
But... Those times pass.
I mean, they still suck. And hurt like hell.
And I dread them. I really do. I wake up every day realizing that I'm going to be upset at some point.
But, I also wake up realizing I'm going to smile at some point.

So it's kind of hard to wake up. In case you didn't catch that.
But.... I really have been having good days.
At the end of the day, I can say that I had a good time, that I smiled a lot.

Also, deja vu.
Weird.

Today wasn't too bad. I mean, it wasn't epic.
Actually, the ending of the day was very good.

I woke up, went to class, the LAST lab of my semester.
It wasn't in its usual place. I even called the lab coordinator, who said it was in the same place.
But it wasn't.
So... I didn't make it to the lab. But it's the ONLY lab I missed, which means I don't automatically fail!
Which is very good.
But I still freaked out. Badly.
Panic attack. Hyperventilation, trembling, etc.

I had a free hour before my class, so I drove to Wal-Mart and got a bag of Jessi's favorite candy, then drove out and dropped it off at her house.
I know that she's comfortable with me, because she had just gotten out of the shower, and she tossed on a shirt and some pants, and came right out to see me. Her hair was wet and she didn't have any makeup.....
It made me so happy that she was this comfortable with me!
It was awesome.

I got to my Abnormal Psych at 2ish, which was good. He said that today was the last class! Woohoo!
So that means Thursday is completely open.
The next two days are going to be really really awesome. I'm looking forward to them. So much.
Tomorrow, Jess and I are going to watch some movies at my house later in the night.
Then Thursday, we're taking Caleb and Christine out to lunch, to let them escape the horror that is judgmental Christians who are against dating and directly oppose the EVIL act that is... KISSING.
I mean, kissing is basically the worst thing in the entire world. Ever.

-.-

Pisses me off.
So we're going to help them get out of that place for a little.
And plus, they get to meet Jessi! Which I'm excited about.
I'm looking forward to introducing her to my friends. My parents like her so far, which is good.
And Jessica's dad REALLY likes me! Which is really really good. He's got a shotgun (which I've seen), so I'm glad I'm on his good side.

Anyway.
I got home after class and hung around, then played the drums for a good 3 hours.
Which was really awesome. I got some emotions out and was able to relax a bit.
Then I had dinner.

Then I found out that Jessi was not having a good night..
So she dropped by, and we went on a short adventure!
We basically drove around. We had a couple goals.

1. Go to this secret place that I needed to show her!
2. Buy a stuffed animal, or
3. Buy a sweatshirt.

1. The secret place was just this cute little lake out in a neighborhood. That was easy.

So goal 2 and 3 are kind of connected.
I got this idea from a friend. Her and her boyfriend would take a small stuffed animal, and keep it at each other's houses until it smelled like them, then gave it to the other.
So I know that Jessica and I are able to see each other often, and we're only 15 minutes apart, but we still like this idea.
So! We drove out to Wal-Mart to buy a stuffed animal with zebra stripes, because it's her favorite pattern.
There was nothing. So we tried out the claw machine 6 times, and didn't get anything.
THOSE THINGS ARE SO GYPPED. I swear.

So we drove down to Target, and decided to get an article of clothing instead. A sweatshirt, to be precise.
But Target was closed.
So we drove back up to Wal-Mart, but they didn't have any good sweatshirts.
Headed down to see if Kmart was open. It wasn't.
Up to Big Lots. Nope.
Old Navy? Nope.

At that point, we gave up.
Because it turns out, EVERY store closes at 10.
Yes, it's common sense to 99% of you, but it didn't occur to us!

And we jammed to a bunch of music, and I impressed her with my rapping skills.
Which aren't really that good, but hey! I can sort of rap.
That's a lie. I can regurgitate words that I've heard before.
But anyway. STILL COUNTS.

We also realized that we're extremely cute in small ways.
For example, we love cuddling and holding hands.
So when we're driving, every time I go into 4th gear, we hold hands!
But we realized that we have to let go of each others' hands when I stop and start.
That wasn't okay!
So now, she places her hand on top of mine when I shift!
So we're constantly holding hands.
I know it's silly, that it's small, and most people would find it unnecessary.

I personally find it amazing. Because we're very affectionate people..
So holding hands makes us both very happy.
We're a pretty darn cute couple, if I say so myself.

That's basically my day.
Right now, I'm listening to the Bayonetta soundtrack.
It's pretty epic.

The entire soundtrack is great, but this has to be my favorite.
Ugh. Now I want to play Bayonetta.

Yup!
That's it for now.
I'm going to head to sleep.
I'm very excited for today already. I can't wait to see my girl again.
Somehow, things seem perfect when I'm with her.
Being in her arms makes all the bad stuff from the world just... Disappear.

I realize I'm becoming "that guy" that constantly talks about his girlfriend on his blog, but..
Well, it's the best thing that's happened to me in a while.
So I can't resist talking about her!
Okay, now I'm going to sleep for reals.
Sleep well everyone! Today will be a good day ( :

-Nolan

We're scary.

She titled this picture "Cute as a Button"